waiting for marriage

Me and my boyfriend have decided to wait till we get married to have sex. Although we already have a child. sometimes i wonder if it makes sense, i mean we want to do things right u kno. yea we had sex b4 but theres just somethin special about him waitin 4 me. Atleast we already tested the merchandise b4 buying it. so yea it does make sense i guess

Nightmare

Last night I had a nightmare. In my nightmare I was emailing someone with one hand and holding Tatiana with the other, in the blink of an eye she jumped out my hand and landed and onto the floor, I picked her up and looked at her to make sure she was okay, when I looked at her head she was bleeding. I took her to the hospital and the doctor asked me how did that happen and I lied and said she had bumped her head on the wall, then the doctor said" Lets see how serious this is" and then after examining her he said" mom this is real bad, this is real bad" and the doctors closed the curtins and pished me away further and further away from her, Once they had er bandaged up she was laying in the bed, and I kept trying to make her laugh was she just laying there looking lifeless. Then I woke up because her father called my phone, That was a horrible nightmare when i got off the phone with tatiana's father I felt like I was gonna cry, I couldnt imagine anything lke that really happening, Thank God it was just a nightmare

Being a mom

Bein a mom, really is a 24/7 job. It takes so much, patience and love and care. Lately I've been thinking about when I'm going to start working again, but its kinda hard because I don't really trust people to watch my daughter. Not only that but, I'm not use to being away from tatiana, so its like I really need to start working but I just to need to figure things out. Bein a mom, also means that you become warrior any one who holds tatiana wrong or lets her cry in instantly told t hand her over, Smetimes I feel like Im to attached to her but I cant help it, after all I did carry her in my womb for 9 months

tatiana

Love at first sight. Unconditional love. The day I had my daughter was truelly the best day of my life. There is no feeling like the feeling that I get when she smiles at me and when she laughs with me. Anyone who attempts to ever hurt her. is putting their life at risk. I never loved anyone the way I love Tatiana. She's six months today. She's so funny and beautiful and everything I coudve have wanted. I love her so much